Wednesday, October 10, 2007
AT LAAST.
Omigod. I cannot believe that exams are finished already. Scratch that, I do believe it. It's just something so hard for my exhausted and formula-ridden mind to absorb. Either that, or it's permanent brain damage. But that's beside the point.
We went to Tomas Morato to go cafe hopping. It was fun. I spent a little over 500, though. Now I can't have the shopping spree in Galleria anymore...awww. But it was worth it. I changed clothes during dismissal. Just the shirt, actually. And people will not stop fussing about the twins. Honestly, can I help it if I have really raging hormones and overactive genes?
Scratch that. The boobs are real.
Anyway, we went to Starbucks first. We both ordered chocolate cream chip ventis. Needless to say, it was heaven. We went upstairs because there were just too many businessmen and old people there who were having business meetings, coffee breaks, and the like. The atmosphere was too serious. Sadly, upstairs was full. You won't believe how packed with college students the floor was. But hey, it was expected. It is exam week for tons of people, and Starbucks is a prime place to study and enjoy the same time. Anyway, we went downstairs again and lounged on the couches while slurping away. Chika-stuff, too. After an hour, we left and went to Cheesecake, etc. and ate tons of cheesecakes. Mmm. And then more chika-stuff while we browsed magazines. We had a little more cafe-hopping after that.
When I got home, it was total heaven. I still had some of my venti left and a take-out box of Double-Cream Cheesecake. It was vain-ity. HAHA. I took tons of pictures in my desk. And then I'm here, typing away. It feels good.
I think I can finally breath. The last day of exams end here, finally. There's only requirements to complete, which doesn't need much gray matter for it to work out. I can't believe the 1st half of the year is finished, actually. It just seems like class began last week. I soo love my section. :) It's hard not to enjoy life there.
Without a doubt, I'm not going to be an os this quarter again. This is not pahumble effect or the usual worry and anxiety. I've accepted it already, in fact. No need to elaborate. And I can't say I'm depressed. My psyche needed the time to rest. It was a good thing for me not to be an os actually. I was just too emotionally exhausted trying to get my grades up and my self-identity and confidence was too dependent on my academic grades. It was a totally nice change to just rest. Without a name attached to you, no duty, no expectation. I actually got to be myself. I can finally say I know how an ordinary person gets to be confident about who she is, even if she's just amongst the crowd.
The time for rest is over. I've had enough rest anyway. I can do this with a smile on my face. I will do my best. No 'tries' this time. This time, I will do it. No more, no less.
Please give me the strength. Mygaahd. I can do this. I will do this. THAT'S A PROMISE.
