Sunday, November 18, 2007
Yes, I feel better now. :)
I think I've gotten better from my suicidal stupor. Not completely out of it, mind you. It still hurts a lot, and sometimes I feel as though I may burst out crying. But everything has become better, if only by an inch or whatever.
This has taught me a really big lesson. Never be too complacent. Think of your actions. All that stuff. I guess I'm a lot more mature now. I still don't know where this is all going, but I know I'm changing. I shouldn't stop functioning just because of this really big mistake.
Everyone hurts. That's a fact. Maybe I was too conceited to see that I live in a world with suicidal teenagers who still move one despite everything that's happened to them, from indescribable emotional turmoil and all that stuff. I was stuck worrying about superficial things. At least I got out of it, right? I'm not going to let it get to me anymore.
This has eally changed me. So I'm partly thankful for the pain.
But it still hurts, mind you. But at least, I'm healing.
