Sunday, February 17, 2008
Totally, and utterly, DEPRESSED. :(
Figures. I feel like I could eat a horse. Not hunger-wise, mind you. Labo noh??
I can't even write my literary analysis, for god's sake. Fucking writer's block. I just feel so useless. People are excelling all over the place and the world's already leaving me out. I'm losing touch of what's really important. I don't even want to think of reverting to my old study-obsessed life like first year, but I honestly really don't know what to do. I feel so STUPID. People are more than moving on and I'm still stuck on that stupid black hole they call shock.
My biggest fear is disappointment. Not only disappointing others, but disappointing MYSELF. And I've been doing that a lot these days. I don't even think there's a higher level of self-loathing I can reach. I wish I could just fall asleep and wake up for summer. Or even graduation.
Can someone kick me back to reality, please??:(
