I feel old. When you think of all the things you used to do before this summer came compared to now, it's a totally ellipsical turnaround. (Fine, x squared over a squared or whatever.) I was used to thinking that I'd be forever a kid, with no worries and just caring about the occassional low quiz score or a squabble with parents. Here I'm worrying about getting into college and choosing a line of work, and in turn getting a job. Now I really can't wait for college life.
High Achievers has brainwashed me.
I've gotten used to answering teachers without raising my hand, or raising points I wouldn't have dared to ask in the first place. I've gotten used to going to the washroom without asking permission, asking questions without standing, and even contradicting my professors. I've gotten used to riding tricycles and jeeps, and eating at restaurants without permission from my 'rents! Independence, I tell you. INDEPENDENCE. :)
And I love it. I relish the feeling of getting college prof-like teachers (most of them are already UP Profs and Pisay teachers) who are not insecure of making mistakes and insist on having active participation from each student of the class. I have started to like the fast-paced lectures and intense atmosphere during discussions. Heck, I love my batch mates. Quirky they may be, but they're still fun.
What's more, they've been trying to purge the conyo out of me. I can still remember that googly-eyed kid who'd follow my dad and older brother when they go to his school fairs, his basketball practice, and my own Milo training. Most of my high school life I've dreamed of the ideal Ateneo life, where I'd drive my own car, go to Katipunan's fast food chains and Starbucks, go to the next block's second-hand book stores, having gimmicks, wearing awesome clothes,and trailing the paved ADMU pathways surrounded by trees and fauna. On the other hand, I've also thought of a carefree UST life, where I'd stay in a dorm, go to the night concerts, shop at SM, that kind of stuff. My sister's taking up Medicine there, anyway. I'd have some company. But still...
If this was half a month ago, I'd definitely choose Ateneo or UST. Not UP. Never UP.
How wrong I was.
I really want to go to UP now. Never mind that I'm most likely not going to penetrate the mind-numbing quota of BA in Accounting. I'd settle for my second course, which is Psychology. I'm open to being a doctor now, honestly. Hopefully a Psychiatrist though.
